Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Totally Cute Tuesday

Someone woke up a little early, so we went for a morning walk...

Sunday, May 29, 2011

It's been on my mind

There's a couple things I've been meaning to blog about for a long time...why in the world do we feel the need to repeat everything we say to a baby? For example:

"Who's that baby in the mirror? Who IS that baby in the mirror, Addison?"

As if they're going to miraculously understand us the second time we say it. Like Addison's gonna reply, "Oh, that's ME in the mirror?!?!?!" I do this all the time, and I've noticed everyone else does too. It drives me nuts when I catch myself doing it, yet I can't stop.

And why do we use words that don't exist and dumbed-down phrases? For example:

"Look at your feets!" or "Time to go night-night." (instead of "Time for bed") or "Say buh-byes!" (instead of "Say goodbye")

I mean, is that really what we want to teach our kids? How to use poor grammar? I always swore these phrases wouldn't enter my vocabulary if I was a parent, but I can tell you right now that they all will. I'm 100% sure of it. It's like our brains are wired for it and there's nothing we can do about it, even against our better judgement.

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Imagining the unimaginable

A few years ago, my sister tried really hard to get me to follow a mommy blog she had stumbled upon. It was a blog written by a local woman detailing her adventures in infertility. Despite my sister's insistence on how great of a blog it was, I had absolutely no interest at the time. But wouldn't you know, after becoming a mommy myself, that blog is now one of two mommy blogs that I follow. And since the time of my sister's failed attempts at getting me to follow, the woman conceived and gave birth to her first child, and later became pregnant with twins. The birth of her twins and the unimaginable days that have followed are what prompted me to finally listen to my sister and click 'Follow".

I've mentioned many times how having a baby has changed my perspective on the meaning and importance of life. I'm now able to relate to a whole crapload of stuff that I couldn't quite grasp before becoming a mom. A good friend used to tell me that after having her first child, she couldn't watch the news anymore without getting upset - she'd hear about murders or such and think, "Oh my gosh, that person has a mother...that was somebody's baby!" I could never relate to this, as my outlook was that murder is part of population control. Well now, now sometimes I lay awake at night imagining all these horrible things that could happen to take my daughter away from me. And now, I get sad when I watch the news. I find myself crying at Cold Case Files when the mother of a murdered child is being interviewed. This part of motherhood - the constant worry and vulnerability - I could do without, but it comes with the territory. And though I have imagined all these horrible things that could happen to Addison, I simply cannot imagine what the mom of the aforementioned blog has gone through. In summary, she went in for an emergency C-Section at 32 weeks to deliver her twins. One went into the NICU, and the other was stillborn. Five months later, and after countless setbacks and surgeries, her little fighter is still in the NICU. I know it's selfish, but I follow her blog because it reminds me to appreciate everything I have. When I'm annoyed with Addison, pissed about a lack of sleep, frustrated at her whining, a new post by this woman shuts me up real quick. She's living the unimaginable, and she manages to do it with optimism and humor.

So.......after my super long introduction.......I'm writing this blog to share information on an event that has been planned to help this family. I realize that there are less than ten people that regularly read my blog, but the internet is an amazing thing, and I figure the least I can do is post the information and maybe somehow through the power of the internet it will reach someone who is inspired by her story and wants to help. Click below to learn more about the story and how to help this family.

Are You Listening

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Totally Cute Tuesday

I think she's lifting her leg to fart.
Afterall, she is my daughter.

See, she feels much better now
after the farting.

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Addy's first sentence

is going to be "Oh, you're turning? I wasn't sure, since you DIDN'T USE YOUR FUCKING TURN SIGNAL!" I'm gonna be in serious trouble when I have to censor what I say.

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

A girl after my own heart

I have hesitated blogging about this because I didn't want to jinx it...but here goes. For nearly three weeks, Addison has been sleeping through the night. I love her. While that is totally awesome all by itself, it actually gets better. My wonderful, beautiful, darling, amazing daughter has an internal alarm clock of 10:00am. Yeah, I love her.  Seriously? How did I get so lucky? She goes to sleep at 8:30 on a late night, and sleeps solidly for over 13 hours. And then, exactly two hours after waking, she takes a one hour nap. Have I mentioned that I love her? And the icing on the cake? She doesn't cry anymore. At all. None, zilch, zero, nada. She puts her thumb in her mouth, grabs her blanket, and rolls to the side. I totally love her.

Monday, May 16, 2011

Another thing to add to the list

The list of things I never imagined I would experience/feel/want/love/etc. is continuously growing. The latest addition: impatiently waiting to go visit a brand new baby and hold her. Yeah, you read that right, I said HOLD her. At the age of thirty, Addison is the only baby I have ever held. I have always politely said "No, thanks" when asked if I wanted to hold a baby. But now, OMGMUSTHOLDBABYNOW (that is, if her mom will let me). Unfortunately, I have somehow picked up pneumonia and have to wait for it to clear up before I can meet this beautiful tiny human. Boo.

Friday, May 13, 2011

The most annoying thing about being sick post baby...

is the little bit of pee that comes out when I cough.

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Totally Cute Tuesday

I made it, with one hour to spare!

"The force is with me. I can control this egg."

"See, told ya! This egg just got pwned" (that's for my daddy)
In other news, Addy had her 6 month well visit today. She is 26 inches long (75th percentile) and 13 pounds 13 ounces (10-25th percentile). So basically, she's tall and skinny. Unfortunately, she's too skinny. I've been instructed to add a feeding. Here I've been so afraid of having a fat kid that I haven't been feeding her enough. Shame on me.

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Mother's Day doesn't get better than this

First, Addy slept through the night and woke up around 8:30 - awesome. Second, Matt cooked me a tasty breakfast of french toast, scrambled eggs, and bacon - super awesome. Third, I finally got my hair cut for the first time since October - also awesome. Fourth, while I was gone, Matt sent a text to let me know Addy left me a mother load of a present in her diaper - more awesomeness. And we rounded out the afternoon with a nice stroll at the park - awe-to-the-some. Just when I thought my first Mother's Day couldn't get any better, Addy gave an encore performance...

Her SECOND poop of the day! This is what happens when a baby who is fed an anti-constipation diet doesn't poop for five days. The smell was, um, interesting. So today she got her first middle-of-the-day bath...

...in her awesome new duck bathtub! This was my very first impulse buy since she was born; I picked it up just the other day at Target for $11.49. It's duck bill quacks when you squeeze it (so cute!). And it has a temperature indicator that changes color if the water is too hot. She loves, loves, loves it!

So yeah, my first Mother's Day was pretty legendary. Happy Mother's Day to all the other mothers out there! I hope your day was just as awesome as mine!

P.S. Don't judge me for my dirty bathtub and tile.

Friday, May 6, 2011

The first lesson in politeness

Addy and I went for a walk yesterday, and the following exchange occurred between me and a man picking up sticks in his yard:

Man: "It's a nice day to take the baby for a walk."
Me: "Yes, it's a beautiful day!"
Man: "How old is your baby?"
Me: "Six months"
Man: "Boy or girl?"
Me: "Girl"
Man: "What's her name?"
Me: "Addison"
Man: "Addison? That's different."
Me: "Yeah."
Man: "Addison. Not Madison?? (I shake my head no) Addison? Hmm, that's interesting..."
Me: "Yeah...have a nice day!"

I walked down the sidewalk a few paces and said to Addy, "When you don't like something, but you want to be polite, you say that's interesting."

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Happy Half-Birthday Love!!!

Addison is six months old today! I simply cannot believe how fast time has gone. Motherhood is one great big contradiction...the days are long, but the months fly by. Every day feels boring and monotonous, but the whole experience is exciting and ever-changing. Every task comes with challenges, yet it all feels so natural.

The past six months has been quite a ride! I've been lucky enough to not only fall deeply in love with Addison, but also with her father. He's been my strength and support through some of my lowest times, and it's been so wonderful sharing in the joys of parenting with him. It truly warms my heart to see Addison's face light up when he enters the room, and I confess, my face lights up a little bit too. Okay, enough with the sappy love stuff. Here's Addison in a nutshell...

Getting her diaper changed
Grabbing fistfulls of the kitties' fur
Playing with her shape sorter - especially the blue stars
Sucking on her fuzzy blanket
Eating prune juice mixed with oatmeal
Riding in the carseat
Bumming around Target
Playing with safety straps
Watching Baby Einstein videos before naptime
Watching me dry my hair
Playing with eye glasses

Being dressed
The hour before bedtime
The vacuum cleaner
Eating peaches
Wearing bibs
Getting her nails trimmed
Getting her face wiped clean after eating
The Bumbo chair
Fitting rooms at department stores

From what I can tell so far, I think she's a lot like me. She's very stubborn in some ways, but she also gets frustrated and gives up easily. She loves to observe everything when she's in a new place. She doesn't let you see her personality unless she's seen you a few times before. She certainly has not been the easiest of babies, and I imagine she wont be the easiest of toddlers or teenagers. We're going to have our hands full with her! And I can't wait to see what the next six months has in store for us!

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Totally Cute Tuesday

Addy got to play with some new toys today, compliments of my friend Jennifer...

This ball lights up, makes noise, and rolls on its own.
The cat thought it was pretty cool too.

Monday, May 2, 2011

There's a pep in my step

This new life of mine? It's pretty damn amazing. It's everything I never knew I always wanted. It's the purpose to my life that I've been searching for since I was thirteen. And sorry Folgers, but the best part of waking up is not the coffee in my cup (although that is an extremely close second-best) - it's experiencing the joy that Addison expresses when she sees my face for the first time each day.

This is what I've become, and I love it - I'm the person who offers to hold another's baby at a wedding reception so they can eat their meal. I'm the woman that smiles at super cheesy Mother's Day commercials. I'm the one who's laughing at the kid throwing a tantrum in the store because I know it's just a phase. I'm a mom. I'm the best mom that I can be.