Sunday, November 29, 2015

A Mother's Love

Dear Addison,

For most of the past five years, I have been documenting your life through this blog, as well as some of my inner most thoughts and feelings about being a mother. Doing so has provided me the ability to record moments that meant the most to me so I have them forever. Being honest and open through my blog also provided me the ability to survive a transition that was very difficult for me: becoming a mother. I hope that when you read my words years from now, those dark feelings I recorded will not hurt you. I hope, in fact, shall you find yourself transitioning into a mother, that my words will be a source of comfort for you.

I have had a front row seat to the most amazing show for the past five years, watching you discover the world around you and finding out what makes you YOU. Let me tell you kid, you are fantastic. You are the best of your father and the best of me, strung together with a beauty and charm that's all your own.

You are confident and extroverted. You never hesitate to make small talk with the cashier, or ask a stranger a question if you think they have the answer. You love meeting new people and participating in everything.

You are bright. Your curiosity is never-ending. You don't settle for the easy answer. You absorb everything that matters to you, and your memory is infallible.

You are caring. You know when I'm not feeling well, and you ask how you can help. You offer support and soothing when a peer is upset. You apologize when you've done something that hurts another, and you're very hard on yourself when you do.

You are naturally funny. You've had this natural humor about you since you began stringing words together. Your delivery turns ordinary moments into ones filled with gut-wrenching laughter. But when you actually try to be funny, you miss the mark.

No one could have prepared me for the journey a mother begins when her child is born. I had experienced joy, wonder, excitement, sadness, and pain, but never had I experienced those emotions with a mother's heart. When you feel joy and wonder, my heart feels a little warmer. When you feel excitement, my heart skips a beat too. When you feel sadness and pain, it courses through my veins and stings my heart. My heart is incredibly full, yet every day my love for you grows. Thank you for teaching me what unconditional love means, and for accepting and thriving on the love I have to give.

I have no doubt you will grow up to be an extraordinary human being. I hope your joys outweigh your sorrows, and I hope you will lean on me whenever you need a mother's love. I hope you find the love of your life, and that he watches you sleep and wonders how he got so lucky to have you by his side. I hope you remain confident and bright in a world that will try to tell you beauty is all that matters. I hope we've taught you to respect others, and most importantly to respect yourself. And above all else, I hope you love your life, whatever kind of life you choose to live.

A mother's love runs deep; Addison, I love you more than you could ever comprehend.

Sunday, November 8, 2015

5th Birthday "Party"

Usually, we celebrate Addy's birthday with all our closest family and friends, which results in about 35 people at our house. As all the kids get older and bigger, the parties get more hectic and overwhelming. Last year, no one could even see or hear Addy opening her presents! So this year, with the birthday girl's very excited permission, we opted for a special night out and sleepover with her best friend, Lilah.

We started the party with a trip to the greatest little local toy store: Smartickles. They were having a Calico Critter event, so the girls got to meet a character and play with Calico Critter sets:

We then made our way to Chuck E Cheese's for an exciting night of food, fun, and games! My phone died upon arrival, so I got only one picture: 

The girls had a great time, and I think Addy has zero complaints about scaling back on the birthday party. Not only did she get to spend fun time with Lilah, she also got to spend quality time with all her immediate family members during separate small gatherings. Maybe this could be the new tradition? 

Friday, November 6, 2015

Birthday Interview: Five Years Old

Ladies and Gentlemen, here are Addy's responses to the annual birthday interview. (Note to self: conduct the interview BEFORE any presents are opened, as there is a recency effect wherein any new toys find their way into as many answers as possible).
  1. My favorite color is: Blue
  2. My favorite book is: The Frozen book from Nana & Papa
  3. My favorite food is: Chocolate Chip Cookies
  4. My favorite movie is: The Little Mermaid
  5. My favorite TV show is: Daniel Tiger's Neighborhood
  6. My favorite toy is: The Ariel doll
  7. My favorite stuffed animal is: The puppy from the carnival
  8. My favorite song is: Uptown Funk You Up
  9. My favorite thing to wear is: This (pointing to her outfit)
  10. My favorite memory is: When I was a baby
  11. My favorite activity is: Playing chase
  12. My favorite place to go is: Disneyland
  13. My best friend is: Lilah
  14. When I grow up, I want to be: A police
  15. I am really good at: Puzzles
  16. I like it when mom: Kisses me
  17. I like it when dad: Gives me a hug
  18. I am beautiful because: I have blue eyes
  19. I like to learn about: Fires
  20. I get frustrated when: Somebody hits me
For the third year running. blue is still her favorite color and Lilah is still her best friend! 

By stating her favorite TV show is Daniel Tiger's Neighborhood, I think she's forgetting that Goosebumps, Sophia the First, Little Princess, and Zig & Sharko get far more screen time than Daniel! 

For the record, she has not even been to Disneyland, yet she knows that it would be her favorite place to go. I just asked her this again while drafting the post, and she named off places as follows: "Pump It, apple picking. No, something more fun: the baby place. No, it's SCHOOL! No, no it's not. It's Pump It Up. For real."

She has been stuck on wanting to be a police officer for a while. I love the innocence in that answer; she sees a police officer only as someone who has the job of helping people. She is unaware of the danger they put themselves in to carry out that job; she is unaware of the misguided attack on police happening across the country; she is unaware of the horrible things she would encounter in the line of duty. She simply wants to help people when she gets older. 

It just occurred to me, I think it would have been a neat idea to give myself my own interview on her birthdays, with prompts such as I get frustrated when Addy... or My favorite activity with Addy is... or When Addy grows up, she will be a/an... 

I'm suddenly very mad I didn't think of this two years ago.  

Thursday, November 5, 2015

Happy 5th Birthday!

This girl is FIVE today! My life has changed in unmeasurable and indescribable ways since she joined my world. She is an amazing little girl full of laughter, zest, and sweetness. She is bright, witty, confident, and strong-willed. She is challenging and polite, emotional and creative. She is my world, my foundation, my light. I might have brought her into this world, but she is the reason I'm here.

Monday, September 7, 2015

Totally Cute Tuesday

I sent Addy to her room for a time out. She came out looking like this:

I wasn't sure if I should be mad that she clearly had fun during her time out, or jealous that she can do her eye makeup better than I can. 

Thursday, August 13, 2015

Idlewild Park

We traveled to Idlewild Park in PA last week to meet Daniel Tiger & friends and stroll through Daniel's neighborhood!

We were joined by our friends, which made it even more exciting for Addy!

The park has numerous kiddie rides for the little ones:

And even one named after my childhood nickname!

We visited the water park also, but the kiddie section was closed.

Addy got to experience staying in a hotel! It took a bit of convincing for her to settle down to sleep the first night, but after the park on the second night, she was out much quicker!

It was a great summer trip, full of laughs and smiles. I'm curious to see what details Addy will recall when she's all grown up! 

Sunday, August 9, 2015

Bathtime, Interrupted

I settled into my Sunday night bath after putting Addy to bed, only to be interrupted by the following exchange:

Addy: "Sorry to annoy you, but I had to go downstairs to get a few essentials"

Me: "Oh yeah? What essentials?"

Addy: "Well, my baby wipes, baby powder bottle, and diaper bag. Because one of my babies POOPED THEIR PANTS. Ugh!"

Thursday, July 9, 2015

Baby, baby, baby!

Meet Baby:

This is Addy's baby, and her latest obsession. Baby eats at the table with her, in her own high chair.

Baby gets wrapped in Addy's special blankie to take a nap.

Baby even gets gauze and bandages when her toes get chewed off by an unfortunate run-in with the dog.

Baby goes shopping with us, on walks to the playground with us (where she LOVES to be pushed in the swing by mommy Addy), and she watches TV with us. This little baby is Addy's pride and joy.

Today, Addy drew a picture of her and baby taking a hot air balloon ride:

I can hardly stand how precious this is. 

Sunday, July 5, 2015

Look, they match!

When you are four years old and battling a double ear infection (which I happen to think was a secondary condition caused by strep throat)... get to eat popsicles for breakfast! On the couch! 

Because nothing beats a popsicle for breakfast when you have zero appetite for food. What she doesn't know is that mommy snuck in some nutrition when she made these popsicles! Here's the recipe:


1 container strawberries
6 oz blueberries 
2 tbsp chia seeds
1 tbsp agave nectar (or more to taste)
Fresh mint, a few sprigs

Blend all of the above in a food processer (I used my Nutri Ninja). Fill popsicle molds and freeze overnight.

I used 4 sprigs of mint, each about 3"-4" long. If I make these again, I'd probably put half of that in. 

Not only are these Addy-approved, but she was very amused that they match the current state of the dog leash burns on her ankles:

Here's to hoping the amoxicillin will win the battle going on in her body soon, so she can get back to summertime fun! 

Thursday, May 14, 2015

Easter in May

Who says you can't dye eggs once Easter is over?!?

I had purchased a bunch of Kool-aid packets to dye eggs with before Easter, but somehow it didn't happen. I finally made time for it today! 

For the record, using Kool-aid makes some nice vibrant colors, but it's rather messy and doesn't stick to the eggs very well. It stains hands and countertops brilliantly, though!!